I've noticed that recently, I'm losing touch with people I once cared about. Things are changing and I'm beginning to think I'm getting alienated by people. It's partly my own fault though...I'm wrapped up in my own world where really only a few things matter to me, and they don't include friends, as harsh as that may seem.
Right now, I've got Megan to look after, every night I'll talk to her for a long time, at least 2 hours a day, which is needed really seeing as I don't get to see her very often. I'm looking for a way to both fix and sell the Audi too, it's more difficult than it may seem, I don't know how much it's all going to cost. And the job world is taking over my life. So recently on an average day it'll be "Wake up, go school, come home, eat lunch, fill in job application forms, check auto trader, play Xbox, talk to Megan, go sleep." It's the same every night, and I don't mind either.
But I am losing touch with so many people. It's almost like I don't have any friends any more. I've not talked with any friends properly in a long time. Not even those who once were so close. It's frustrating really. Not just because I've got no time, but also because it seems none even makes effort with me any more. It could be because of recent events, but either way, it seems a bit unfair. Like I'm not worth being a friend any more.
Then again, maybe this is just what happens when you get older? Maybe you just move on, grow up and get on with your life. Who knows really. I don't suppose it really matters in the end, as long as everyone is happy.
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